never and always

As the sun breaks through and warms the cool, it all seems far more alive than a moment before.

I shiver and think, ‘I don’t think they know how sensitive I am’.

It’s a wonderful thing but also a challenge, maybe more of a challenge to those closest.

I can feel such a breadth and depth of emotion, yet those emotions can be embarrassingly misdirected, misplaced.

I’m tired and energized. Vulnerable and closed off. Hopeful and hopeless. Loving and bitter.

I want to feel nothing and everything, never and always.